Posted by Anonymous on 2013/04/16 under Uncategorized Why is my brain in turmoil? I constantly over think and analyse insignificant fixtures. My mind does not rest! Is everyone else like this? I appear calm and controlled but when I get home on my own I become manic! I’m an oddball and I know that, I’m also a very big dreamer! I always believe I can do better for myself which is why I have an avid skepticism when it comes to jobs or relationships, I think that I may be scared of long term things as I’m very much a now person! With little patience when change is thoroughly needed, I like new challenges not day after day tedious dullness. People tell me to switch off but there is no button! I can’t switch off! Deep thought captivates me at every opportunity in often non sensical antic dotes which lead to further confusion. I’m not a person that can settle for a sundry life in a monotonous world of routine. I don’t like the corporate-ness off everything, I like the freedoms of life, I hate control and authority. I guess for some people my life is perfect but when you have a mind like mine you would well and truly feel like you had no belonging……an emptiness….a void which in my heart of hearts I know can be fixed with a lifestyle change that isn’t easy or Incredibley desirable in a modern world, also it is not accepted but f*** them because they’re are the people who live in a con formative world full of lies and hatred. What I seek is a happiness that only comes with adventure, an adventure into the unknown, to have changing horizons under a glorious ever burning sun. People may believe that this is a rant of energetic man haunted with the shackles of depression and I’m not afraid to admit that I was this man not so long ago but this is deeper in another sense, it’s more of a quest for Being than not being….
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Just do what you want to, and if you dont know what that is then do something you could never do, Maybe a trip or if youre broke go out with a friend, ask a girl out, find something that makes you feel good for even a second and hang on to it, because those few moments can lead to a lifetime of happiness.