Posted by Anonymous on 2013/04/14 under Uncategorized Tonight is a bad night.. I’m alone. I’m depressed and wanting to have life just stop.. I get that way a lot.. just hoping life stops. I could never harm myself, but the physical/mental/emotional stress of wishing life would stop is just as painful. The one person I love is right next to me, and has been yelling at me all night. This person knows how I’m feeling right now and just doesn’t care. I asked them to be there for me and love me… I’m there for you, why can’t you be there for me? I have no one else to talk to.. So I came here. I come on here and read other peoples problems.. relate.. think about them and my own.. and it somehow makes me feel better. Other people’s pain doesn’t make me feel better.. it sucks hearing others are suffering.. it just helps me realize I’m not alone. I just need one friend.. just one. Please, someone reach out to me. I need some hope and love in my life..
I am really sorry you have to deal with these things. It makes me sad that the person right next to you, your soul mate, is not caring or helping. Because caring is love. And sometimes you need to think about whether or not you love them or not. Because if love is not passion and wild, then, maybe you are doing it wrong. I have thoughts about my life ending as well, and sometimes I get so horribly and sad and depressed. And then I have really good days where everything is going right. And that confuses me in a way. Because I don’t know whether I am happy or sad and we are all still trying to figure things out no matter how old we are. Good luck with life my dear. Good things will come for you .xx