Posted by Anonymous on 2013/04/09 under Uncategorized I really am a weirdo, not because I pick my nose during class or hang out with the nerds, but because of this strange conundrum that has happened between me and my best friend. Let me start off with I’m not a lesbian. I never thought a girl was ever attractive in my eyes. When I meet my best friend for the first time that’s all I thought of her as, a best friend. I have been her best friend for five years, and never felt attached to her. We been through a lot together, been through ups and downs, but this last year I’ve been feeling more attached to her to the point where I want to date her. I don’t know if its just a phase or if I really love her, but these feelings that I have for her…. I keep on having these strange dreams where I would confess or we would go on a date together. It really scares me, I know she doesn’t like me like that, so I stay away from her so she doesn’t have to know about my true feelings. I stopped having sleepovers, talking to her in class, and just hanging out so she’s doesn’t find out. She started to feel worried about me and asked if she could come over. I always say no because I’m busy, and for the past few weeks that’s all she she asks me if I want to come over to her house or when I’m free, it scares me to death of her coming over, and If do something outrageous…. I can’t even think about what will happened. I’m also starting to get the feeling that if I just say no that eventually she will start thinking that I don’t want to be her best friend anymore and stop being around me. Of course I want to be around her but at the same time I think it would be a good idea because if I hurt her I would never forgive myself. I don’t want to like her like that, yet why do I have these feeling for her? I love her but she must never find out. How on earth do I stay as her best friend and don’t show my feelings for her?
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Well… first of all, you have decide if you are actually in “love” with her. Do you feel sexually attracted to her? Or do you love spending time with her and being in her presence? You might just like her a lot as a really good friend. On the other hand, you are still figuring out your sexuality and that is ok too. But please don’t ignore her! Get together with her, and see how you feel when she is around. You need to look deep into yourself. You can tell her how you feel, in an indirect way. Say,”I might be attracted to girls in a romantic way.” If she is really your friend, she will be able to discuss stuff like this with you. Good luck .xx
I do love her but the problem is that she has a boyfriend. (that’s how I know that she is not attracted to girls) not only that but I don’t want to be in a relationship with her. I really do love her but I think being friends would be the best choice. The problem is that I’m scared that one day it would be all to much and I would confess and my fanties would actually come true. (I don’t want that to happen because I want to be her friend and that’s it) I just need to cope with these feelings so it dosen’t become all a big mess.