Posted by Anonymous on 2013/04/07 under Uncategorized Two months ago I told my crush I loved her. But she turned me down, I have no problem with that, I understand you can do that. What I don’t understand is what she did after. She started something with one of my best friends, during the time I was still recovering from the storm that started inside me. She asked me what would happen if she started something with him and I told her that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. Then there was Valentines Day. The time between Valentines Day and now, she lied to me and broke me down. I probably was one of her best friends ever and I know stuff from her she never told anyone else but me, not even her parents or even her former best friend which she also lied to. It went downhill with me and I hurt myself. Both physically and mentally. Today I walk around with scars because of her. I lost 15 pounds and my grades went down, yes I am still a scholar. And I thought of suicide, putting an end to this misery. We stopped talking because I just couldn’t anymore. I am just standing still and I try to proceed but for some reason I just can’t stop thinking about it. Every single day I have to watch them kiss and cuddle. Standing at the sideline and die inside. I told her that but I have the feeling she doesn’t comprehend what she has done. I told someone what happened and she supported me al the time during this s***. And I am grateful she is there for me, otherwise I think I wouldn’t be writing this right now. I try to move on but I just feel so stuck. I find no more joy in my life anymore. I wanted to write my story down because I can’t keep it inside me anymore. I only want to ask, what should I do?
She started a relationship with him, and I was the first to know. She told it to me with a text message like it was nothing. But what she didn’t seem to understand was that she made the ground collapse underneath me.
I just don’t know why.
I know this might just be another sad story amongst all the others in this world and I have the feeling I am pulling to much attention towards me.