sometimes i get some strange feelings of lonliness, fear, sadness, & i don’t know what to do like seriosely, i try to play some music & cheer up my self but i can’t get better , but the fact is that i’m missing a lot of people , people i’ve lost recently , some of them are dead & some of them left me without any reason!! how could that ever happen? i got over it but the problem is that i’m not strong enough, i am not confidante , i can’t forget tottaly about my pass, i want to begin a whole new life, i want to be the daughter that the whole parents dream about, i just want to be a great person, i want to change to the best! i say this words everyday but i never get to do it! i don’t know why i am not able to get up some morning and do it!! i don’t even know how to start from where to start!! things are complicated for me & my brain never stop thinking!! what should i do??
You sound like you have depression, which is classified as an actual illness. You should probably see a doctor, as this is a truly awful thing to deal with alone.
dont get so tensed. see it’s nyc that you think for your parents and future and the only problem is somewhere you are being pulled off to do your work .try off to be silent at the moments of depression, close your eyes, think of your goal, take a deep breath and think of your god. if you dont believe in god, think of your parents they are indeed your best. believe that nobody but you can accomplish your goal and go ahead for it. all the very best….
thanx a lot guys i hope so!!