Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/03 under Uncategorized Have u maybe just maybe figured out ur not as cool as u thought u were. That all ur friends are just fake delusions made to get u through ur miserable life? Maybe everyone really thinks ur annoying and they really don’t like u. I’m feeling like that right now. I feel like a million pieces inside me broke and crumbled on the floor in front of me. I hate trying to please every single person. I just want to be me. I can’t deal with the stress of everything. School life friend issues that don’t even involve me but I’m in them anyway. Friends that don’t appreciate me for me. Only use me for things. I don’t think I have any real friends. I’m not happy with my life. Somedays I just feel like crying for no reason other than to get my emotions out. So many swirling around in my brain. I’m pathetic. Thinking I can be friends with people who probably have no interest in hearing what I have to say. I just want to be accepted. And the way to do that is to be someone u aren’t and struggling through school and coming out on the bottom anyway. So many people in this world that I will never know. So much sadness that it hurts to think about. And when I talk my feelings to be people they don’t listen. I have regrets in my life. But it’s in the past and the past is the past. I’m tired. I’m tired of taking pills to make me happy. Of constantly obsessing over how I look. Sometimes I just wish I had never been born. What difference does it make..? Being alive or not being alive? I wonder what would happen if I didn’t let people just walk all over me. Taking people for granted. Expecting the best out of people and ending up disappointed in the end. Faking my way though life so I survive the hard ships of how I’m living. I feel unnoticed, unchanged, living in reused old skin. People can be cruel. And I might not be the prettiest girl in school. And I may have noticeable scars on my ears but that doesn’t make me less of a person. It makes me wonder if people would care if I died. If I just one day jumped off a cliff or slit my wrists. Would they noticed that the girl they sat next to was gone? That the girl that got straight A’s wasn’t around anymore? I want to love and be loved. And sometimes that just doesn’t happen. Thanks for listening. Bye.
One thought on “Thoughts About Life”
Leave a Reply Cancel reply
This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.
I will notice that the girl that sat next to me isn’t here anymore 🙂 I will be very worried about where you went. Please don’t feel worthless, you are the best, there’s no one better than the person that you see in the mirror every morning. I wish I could get to know you better, you seem very much like me, and I would be interested to know what you want to say 🙂 . Reply if you want to talk. Otherwise have an amazing life, and remember you are the best person in the world.