Posted by Anonymous on 2013/01/31 under Friends This is a prayer for you guys: Some people make a hard day a little less hard just by laughing, smiling and being here… They’re probably never gonna read this, but I really wanted to say it, and I thought the world should know that there are some amazing souls on this earth… I also dedicate this song to them, which summarizes all my wishes for them: Never Alone by Lady A.
I am at work right now, studying for a certificate that I already failed once. I have depression, and I easily get very hurt. Thank God my family is THE most amazing family in the world, I have THE greatest mom, THE greatest dad, and THE greatest sister, and I really insist on that. But I am very sensitive, I get easily hurt, I don’t have a lot of friends, I am not very easy to deal and communicate with. Trusting people doesn’t come to me easily, and needing to feel safe in a place I have to spend most of my time at, is crucial for me. I didn’t know what to expect before coming here to work. But the people at work with me, we’re all young between 23(me) and 30, they make me feel home, I feel safe here, I feel ok. We take care of each other. They make my days less hard. They probably don’t even know it, and I don’t think I’m ever gonna tell them, but they helped me a lot. Not by doing anything too important or too explicit, but by making me feel that I am not alone, and that they care. Sometimes, one of them might say something, just a little something, that would change the way I feel… Sometimes they would comfort me If I felt hopeless, or bad about myself… I love them. I know I get too attached, I know that. But they still are great people. And I fear that when I’m gonna leave, they will forget about me. Because when someone leaves, and it happened before, we still keep in touch with them, but it’s not the same thing, we’re not together everyday and all day long, we tell them to come with us everytime we go out together, so it really isn’t the same anymore. And I can’t stay, because I have to leave to build a better future for myself. And anw, if I don’t leave, they will eventually leave one by one… It has already started anyway. I don’t have a lot of friends, I am not a very easy person, I am hughly sensitive so I’m not easy to communicate with. I don’t feel comfortable everywhere, and I finally found a place which made me feel home, safe, as if I was home with my family whom I dearly love, a place where I feel like I belong, so you can imagine how terrified I am that one day, and this day might come very soon, all of this WILL end… I’m writing this to immortalise this moment: Today I came to work very very sad, because I had already failed an exam and for many other reasons that I’m not gonna say here. But now, I’m sitting on my desk, hearing my co-workers laugh and having fun, looking at them being happy. I don’t need to talk, I don’t need to do anything. I just need to be here with them, to hear their laughs, to see their smiles and the happy looks in their eyes, that is enough to make me feel safe… So now I’m sitting here, in front of my computer, and I feel that my heart is a little less hurt, that my day is a little better than I thought it was going to be… I wish, from the bottom of my heart, that these people will have a great life, and all they deserve. I wish them to be happy, I wish that when they’re about to go to sleep for the last time, they look back at their life and say to themselves: “Life truly was an amazing adventure. I lived, I was, I loved…” May the angels always look upon them, and may God never forget their prayers and their wishes. These few years of my life will always be in my heart! 🙂 God bless!
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god bless your happy soul