Posted by Anonymous on 2012/12/12 under Uncategorized Hao was there when i was getting over Prat. Prat was his friend but yeah he just help me get through the broken heart.Soon, i fell for Hao. He is a nice guy…loving him is the rightest thing i have ever done. One day, he confessed to me. And, that’s how the story between us started. But, we weren’t a couple…officially. We just went on like that for a couple of weeks. He said he would make me his girlfriend on 12.12.12. But i guess sometimes things just don’t work our ways. In the waiting, i thought a lot…about the future, and everything. Fear started to build up in me…i doubt this relationship. I told one night, that i would rather lose him as a lover, but i cannot lose him as a friend..i can’t completely lose him…He reassured me..But just 2 days before 12.12.12 my fears still hadn’t gone away..I text him that night, saying that we should just stay as friends for the meantime. After that text…(i guess God really hates me), my phone crashed..i never got to really explain…I think he felt owned..That very night, i lost another friend over nothing..NOTHING! No one seemed to understand what i am going through now…they all just say that if i couldn’t take the pain this small, i wouldn’t be able to stand the pain in the real world…I am still in high school and you know what they call us…Kids! I think back how Hao was there when i was going through the biggest heartbreak, he mended my heart, but now, he broke it..How can a heart be broken twice?Well, i don’t know…it’s just high school s***. I know i am not the only one but i am alone, going through this. Really, i don’t know how to love anymore…i have lost faith in love completely. Love hurts so bad that all the past friendship doesn’t count anymore. We were friends before we fell for each other!It’s a shame that we have to end this way..if only you could see this, maybe we can still save this…I make mistakes, but don’t they say we all deserve a second chance? Words kill…Killed us..i didn’t know what’s between us is so fragile..i thought you would still have faith, still hope and believe that we can one day make it through..all that’s left is me, my pretty face and my over-thinking brain. Goodbye Hao, meeting you has never been a mistake, but just lesson learned in life..i have grown up a little more..i hope you will never forget me..I know i won’t. Best of luck in the days ahead, find a girl who doesn’t mess things up, and also don’t give up too quickly..Love you.