i don’t understand how others don’t see things as clearly as i do… how they don’t think as deeply as i do. i get this dark itch for something wrong, for something bad. i’ve learned to express my thoughts and feelings, but i haven’t found anywhere else to do that without being misinterpreted, and being thought of as psychotic. feeling like i’m the only one with an immense amount of common sense, it helpful; but i’ve learned to use it in bad ways. this is completely different from whatever you’re thinking… this isn’t big enough for me to go and find help, but of course no one would understand that.