Posted by Anonymous on 2012/11/03 under Uncategorized i dont think i deserve to live in this world. I cant love anybody. Everytime I fall for someone, i stop liking them after a little while. There is no such thing as a perfect person and i think ill never find the one for me. So whats the point of life?? Thats what everybody around cares for-falling in love. But i just cant do that. It all sounds so fake. They say they love each other forever, but i know its all a lie. I dont understand, how people can love someone, i cant, i dont know how, can you learn that? i guess not. I cant like the same person for a long time. I want to but i cant. I tried falling in love with a person, but then i just didnt have any feelings anymore. How is that possible, i like this person at first, and in an instant, i dont have any feelings anymore for them.
But its not only about that, its also the social life. My friends, they deserve a better friend than me. They love me and would do anything for me. Why am i not like that. Why am i not selfless and altruistic. I want to be but im just lazy. I dont even understand why they love me so much, i havent done anything wonderful.
There are so many things i dont like about myself, but im too lazy to change them. I dont know how to change them even. if i do, that wont be me. thats not how i am. why is life so complicated?
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The thing is, all of these feelings are inside you and they are controllable. When you understand that you have the power in yourself, you will be able to do anything. It is okay that you do not love anyone unconditionally right now. Love happens in mysterious ways and you will find it in the least expected place. Just promise that you will keep your heart open because there might be someone amazing for you out there.