Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/17 under Uncategorized i find myself constanly looking at my life trying to figure out what i want to do who i want to be and i look at the world we are in and see if what i want is something i can be but each time i see it has no i cant, you might say well thats a lie you can. Trust me that a load of s*** say something like”you can do what ever you want has long has you put your mind and heart into it” just dosent cut it in the real world pritty word are just pritty. I also have the problem i just cant seem to have fun at any job thats oh how do i put this 9-5 job or lets go and build a f***ing road kind of jobs ya know the basic simple s*** that for some reason 80% of our population seems so fine with. I cant stand the fact of just accepting a 9-5 job that i dont love or hate its just something i have to do. i want a job that i can love that i can enjoy but all the stuff i love to do are things that in reality may be jobs but theres such little chance of getting that job that its hopeless. i love things like manga and anime i like fantasy i love reading but im not good at drawing im not a good writer my grammer sucks and each time i try to wright a story it just dosent sound good, id love it if there was a company that paid me to maby review manga and anime or something but who the f*** wouldent want a job like that its simple (granted you have a love for that kind of thing) and you get paid for it.but no matter how i look at things i keep comeing to the same conclution i hate this world i hate my life other than my amazing gf, maby if we did have so many d*** head in the world puting scams and s*** on the net i could find the job im looking for but f*** at the moment if i happened to find iti wouldent know if it was real or not. im 20 going on 21 i relize im young but i see our world and i see only poitlessness people say find a reason find somethingyou love it will all work out but those agane are just words most people who say that have things they love that are easy to get intoor are just happy to be part of the status quo. idk maby im over analizing everything and should simplify it. but there is also a nother little fact each time i do a little hard labour i always get sick always so im forced to take time off and it ends me feeling like an ass who wasted there time. f*** idk its life.