Posted by Anonymous on 2013/02/11 under Uncategorized I moved to America in a place I’ve lived before and had the absolute worst time of my life. I have no legit friends and all I do during my free time is sit in my room drawing, writing, and listening to rock. My emotions are utterly deadened. My father’s job leaves him in charge of things such as suicides, DUI, shootings, etc. I’m doing my best to not sound like a melodramatic liar right now, seems impossible to me. At school people hardly acknowledge my existence and blow me off as a fool because I either freeze up and shake or ignore them when they try to talk to me. The only thing I have close to friends are people who choose to make fun of me and pester me when I make a mistake. I have really nowhere to go now. Counselors are more like pedophiles to me who never have any emotion in their cold voices that give you the feeling that you are talking to a robot more than a living person. Let me explain more, I used to live in South Korea with the best possible friends that I could ever have. Then I moved back to my old town unwillingly, and when my dad had to tell me and my older sister she broke into tears and I had to be a shoulder to cry on. At first my mind couldn’t take this in and I had no feelings for the time being, I still can’t. I spontaneously begin to cry and have mood swings when I think about the subject of my situation. Due to being more dead than alive I have seen things for how they are, and being a twelve year old with the mind of an adult surrounded my classmates with little more than a five-year-old’s intellect really pisses me off. If anyone actually cares about who I am they’d speak up about it. All I hear is silence from these fools. The “friends” I spoke of earlier are in reality quite shallow and care little of how I feel, or at least they’re dense enough to show a little empathy for a kid. I’d rather fall comatose than be here, sleeping and dreaming of my past life. Just so if you ARE reading this and you actually care , don’t worry about suicide in this case. I know that that would hurt my family and cutting my life short is stupid. It’s just that this is really, really hard to withstand the comments of others. They feel like bullets against my mind. I JUST WANT TO F***ING GO HOME.
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i bet it is hard to move somewhere where u hardly talk to anyone. dont worry thinks will get better eventually:). sometimes things dont come out how we would want them to but i think that it happens for a reason. and all those people that make fun of you or mess with you should be ashamed of themselves. Dont pay them too much attention because there not even worth thinking about. as for the people that try to talk to you and you ignore well, i think u shouldnt ignore them just talk to them,maybe there people that sometimes feel just like you. while you are living where you are now u should try to make the best of it cause if u dont it will be a living hell, believe me i’ve been where your at no joke:). and about the counselors i totally get you there like emotionless haha. well um i wish you good luck, things will get better, i always remember that there are always people who are in worse situations than my own. smile, because you can:D!
oh i almost forgot haha, if you think that no one thinks about you,well your wrong. I’m not telling you this just to make you feel better. there will always be someone who thinks about you☺, its true…
i dont know u but from what i read, i think your a pretty cool kid:).
I am really sorry that you have to go through this! I cannot even imagine! Realize that things do get better, and I know you are strong enough to accomplish anything! Try meeting at least one person. It does not even have to be at school just meet a friend! I know there are a lot of mean people, but there has to be a few people who are very accepting. If no one is nice, understand that that is there problem! They are missing out on meeting a great friend! Good luck .xx