Spared effort
Phone calls on 5 minute drives. Sweet nothing's in the morning and at night. Little details that slip through the conversations. Small things. Small tiny insignificant things. Knowing what you eat. How you like your burger. What foods you love And which ones you can't eat even though you want to. Irrelevant information to most [..more..]
I like my best friend, oh f***
I'm moving to a new city and going to college in a few months and I've just realized that I have feelings for my best friend. Even though I'll be losing contact with almost everyone in my life once I move, not being able to see or talk to her makes me more upset than [..more..]
Alone
Is she ever going to love me the way I want to be loved? I doubt it. She’s f***ed up and it’s partly my fault. I can’t sleep and I was rejected for Valentine’s Day. I’m sure if we end up together I’ll be forgotten over and over again. I always am. Nobody actually loves [..more..]
to my sean
I know were both afraid of the future and of the things unsure. I know and feel your pains, and I know what it feels like. I know what it feels like wanting to die, seeking happiness and validation from certain people, feeling all the shame and guilt of being alive everyday the feeling of [..more..]
I Love The Internet
Currently using CHATGPT to write a Malcolm in the Middle/Mortal Kombat story with quotes where Lois trains with Raiden in order to find and defeat Shang Tsung, who has kidnapped her family. I love the internet.
Did our relationship not matter to you?
Did you ever care about me? Love me? After all that we went through together, why did you block me? I thought I mattered more than that. You said you would wait for me. Well I’m ready now, but you seem to be gone. Did I matter so little to you that you could so [..more..]
I miss you so much
I miss you sooo much. It has been 14 days that we don't talk anymore. But I always miss you. I can't help it. These days are the worst days in my life.
It is hard to move on
I want to know how are you? Are you happy with a new girlfriend? I am sorry that I deleted text app. I think it is the best way to move on.
Why :(
Why am i such a hopeless romantic? I always think that people will change. Things will be different, they'll get better. Ugh, why? I keep on hoping and i just wish i could grow tired of this , but i keep hanging on to this ideal scenario i have created. So i keep on wishing [..more..]
pink frog; december 29 2022
i wish i could understand and sympathize with you and each of your worries