Posted by mpauls on 2015/05/31 under Uncategorized I know you are avoiding me. I remember each message left ignored. I am completely aware of your intentions. But my heart can’t keep up with my brain. And now I am facing reality. Enough is enough. The way you have handled this is immature. I wished you had handled it a different way. You left me hanging more than once. And more than once I have been met with disappointment. It is painful when I see you online, purposely ignoring my messages. I know it sounds like im an obsessive maniac, but is this how far our relationship goes? If it is, I’m again disappointed with this. How much more must you torture me? Its enough that I know you might have been using me. Maybe my gut instincts are to be trusted. Maybe you weren’t that reliable at all. Maybe I’m not a fool, I think. I think that you were not worth it. Not worth any of the efforts I put in. That whole year of efforts, wasted on a nice face. Blaming myself will make me feel stupid. And I had enough of being on that side. Now I’m getting rid of you. I’m sick and tired of being the guy that cheers you up. I’m sick and tired of being there. I’ve had enough of you (pretending) to care. What a mistake I made. Now I’m not gonna make that mistake twice no more. I have much more things to tend to. I have a dream delayed. I have a passion unattended. And now I’m bringing it back. I’m deserved to be treated more htan this. I have standards to which I adhere to. I am not saying I am picky. But I deserve someone who cares for me as much as I do. And I am sick and tired of caring so much, and I can’t even see the silver lining. As for this year, I am chasing my dream. Lighting up the passion within, sparking it into life once again. No more of wasting time on you. I had have enough. So shoo. Go away. I don’t need you no more. If you really want to patch things up again, make an effort. Funny how ironic it is. You told me to make an effort to show that you care. But yet you don’t show any effort at all. Now I realized that you really don’t care. 🙂 I am getting my life back. I am striving to be the best. I want to be the one with the last laugh. I am exhausted with dealing with something that never ends. Maybe all this was disappointment for not getting you. Well than, with this, I understand. I’m going to forget you. I’m letting it go. If you want me, reach for me. If not, Goodbye.
Once people started talking about how much of a b***h you were, you stopped meeting and talking with me. How a fool I was for trusting you. Trusting that you were better than this.