Posted by dman2210 on 2014/11/11 under Uncategorized I’m turning into Kailey. She’s gone now, and I’m down all the time and dont want to do or eat anything, and I’m getting really clingy… There’s also added paranoia on top. I’m afraid Khy doesn’t even trust me. Boom, this other guy comes back for two days with his eloquence and she tells him crap and listens to his crap, and I, the guy she said she wanted to be with forever, I’m just like sitting here, fading into the background. Does she really even care? I try everything I can think of, and then I spend days trying to think of more, to keep her, make her, plan for her to be, happy. I tell her I’m unhappy, tell her what I want, and almost need, and she freaks out and backs off and decides I’m going to leave her because my emotions are new, and scary and I’m scared of letting them out. It’s really hard for me, and she doesn’t even tell me crap anymore. Maybe it’s me. Idk. I asked her to tell me what happenned at a family meeting, like no big deal, she said she would. two hours later I message her and ask her how it went. It didn’t really change anything, wasn’t big or anything. probably took fifteen minutes. She forgot. Well, i guess i’m forgettable. Anyway, my parents are hounding me pretty bad too. 18 and paying for my own cell phone, I still have to get it confiscated, still have to be in bed by a certain time, Can’t be alone anywhere with my girlfriend without getting a good strong talk about how I’m gonna slip and have sex with her. Maybe I am just a that bad, but, I know I wouldn’t do that to her. I could lay naked next to her and completely abstain. But you know. I did one in the past, so that ruins my future. Anyway, poppy says nighty.