I shook
I had a dream last night that she said it. That she cried and she said it. My body shook as she held me in her arms and all the pain washed away, all the fear washed away, all the agony, the anger, the confused voices in my head repeating over and over again, ’why?’. [..more..]
Do You Think Of Me Still?
I miss my best friend. I would like to tell myself that I’m slowly getting used to us not being friends anymore but I’m not…I miss her more and more everyday. I think about her all the time and wonder if she ever thinks about me to-if she ever regrets her decision to push me [..more..]
Missing Limb
I lost my best friend, my sister, my soul mate, this year. It kind of feels like all we were and had will die with us once this year ends. I know that’s not true but that’s what it feels like….13 years. 13 years of my short, just starting life-and she was there for it [..more..]
Gains and Losses
It’s December 24, of 2014 and the year is almost over. I have accomplished much, gained much, and lost much all within this beautiful, heartbreaking year. I can only ever hope to accomplish, and gain more and what I have lost within the new one. This is my first journal entry and everyone keeps asking [..more..]