Posted by JesMarie324 on 2015/01/28 under Uncategorized I needed somewhere to write my thoughts and feelings so here I am.. considering my so called fiance says hes cares how I feel he has no problem walking out the door while im crying.
Weve been together for over 3 yrs and alot has happened. First off we have a almost two yr old boy who is my whole life and soul.. I am a stay at home mom. And also do not have my licence nor a car.. well what really gets me pissed off is he is and will just say im going here and jump in the car and be gone for hours at a time. But let me even tty to get out of the house by myself with our son with me and its ww3. I have to say I may have some reason behind it because i havent been the most faithful girlfriend but let me clear things up I have never ever physically cheated on him. Yes ive lied yes ive gone behind his back yes ive messed up but if I did not want to be with him dont u think i wouldnt of moved to our own place 4months ago. I would be talking to other guys not caring what he was doing or that he wasnt spending time with his family… yes he works alot.Usually 9-12 hour days monday tthrough Friday and hes a dj on friday nights… but every night he has something else to do. Or he comes home from work hamgs out for a little then goes to bed.. but then he wonders why our son is like my shadow. He always wants to be with me because daddy is rarely home. Id say in the two years our son has been alive my fiance has had him by himself where I can go out enjoy time alone maybe a hand full of times… I just think thats wrong.
I dont know if it makes me selfish wanting to walk out of this house by myself every once in a while. But im tired of feeling controlled and held down. I dont know what to do.