Posted by Jared_Lund on 2014/02/10 under Uncategorized My family has labeled me as “the stupid one who can’t ever succeed in school, the one who lies, the one who plays women, that kid who will never go far. And I can’t ever get rid of those labels, all they look for are the things that back them up, or reinforce them. Not the things that break them down. I have a lot of friends for the most part, and I’m not hated at school. But I just don’t talk to people much. I’m only close to about 3 people. I really wish I could just move away, live in a different family. A family that made me feel like I COULD overcome these obstacles in my life. A family that supported me, let me have freedom, and let me do the things I like to do without interruptions. My parents give me no privacy, they’re always around. Yet I feel so alone. My parents relate everything I do to my laptop and iPod. “oh, you didn’t do this? I’m taking away your laptop for 2 days.” or “if you don’t get out of bed in 3 minutes I’m taking your iPod for the day.” And all it does is piss me off even more. I have no one to go to. No where to hide. There have been times where I was driven to running away… sometimes even suicidal thoughts and actions. Recently I’ve developed a more enclosed attitude from my parents and friends. I’m locking myself in. I can’t take this anymore. Everything is starting to piss me off more and more. Please, please help me.
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tried to find a way to help out but the only thing I could think of is that you might just need some activity to keep you busy like a sport or reading. sorry for not being of much help but at least you now know that people do listen.. take care and hope you manage a way to figure things out.
Surrounding yourself with people who love and support you is crucial. There is difficulty when your family is bringing you down, all you can do is attempt to explain to them how they make you feel. Perhaps they just have a very left of centre way of showing that they love you. Unfortunately I have encountered suicidal thoughts and actions in my life, and been in a place similar to your own. I erased the negative people from my life, chose to ignore with much difficulty those I could not erase, and surrounded myself with enriching people.
I never thought someone could understand me and what i’m going through but after reading this i changed my mind. i can literally relate to every single thing you wrote, and i’m sorry, you have to go through this too.