I had a meeting with my (cough*very useless*cough) guidance consoler this morning and my mom. I asked her about options for either homeschooling or taking just Pre-Calculus online/through private school/whatever so that I would have more time to learn the material, because math causes me lots of anxiety. She basically gave me no information. She told me all the reasons I should stay in my ULTRA-competitive school and didn’t even want to entertain the notion of me leaving, even if it was just
for a semester. I want to take the rest of my 10th grade credits and then come back in 11th to do the IB Program, but she made that sound impossible. She told me I didn’t have to take Pre-Cal, to take an easier math, so when I asked her about taking P.C. over the summer or at a different school after taking the easier math, she was like “Oh don’t do that.” And my mom will listen to whatever she says. So my mom doesn’t want me to be homeschooled anymore.
The main reason I want to be homeschooled is so I can be less stressed 🙁 When I told my g.c. this, she looked at me like I was an idiot. “You’re going to be stressed in IB.” I KNOW THAT, but I need A BREAK SO BAD :(. I love to learn, but I hate school. It’s getting to the point where I am almost depressed to think about school, and I would really rather die. (But I’m not suicidal). So I’m just going to stick with my schedule now–Algebra 2 now, Pre-Calc next semester, IB next year. And I’ll be so stressed I won’t function and I’ll hate every minute of it and my life will suck, but life isn’t suppose to be enjoyable.