When i was in 3rd grade everything was fine. I went to school i had a best freind that i played with everyday and i just enjoyed life. One day my mother became sick. At first i thought of it as nothing but when a month had passed i knew something was wrong. After a year of sickness i was getting really worried but she actually recovered. For a week. Then the sickness came aigain and this time it was here to stay. The day she became sick i stopped doing my homework. And for the next 2 years i kept telling myself to start aigain but i couln´t i just couln´t. So i became depressed. My mom was slowly dying, my consceince was eating me up because of the homework, and to top it all off my best freind was leaving for another school. Now we were barely seeing each other one time a month. These times were tough for me so i had to resort to playing video games. I guess that was the only thing that stimulated me.
Then it happened. My mother passed away. I had expected myself to cry and scream but i were paralyzed and i could cry at the funeral.
Ever since that day i have tried to recover but to no avail. I have next to no freinds, no mom and im still not doing my homework. My mom died 2 years ago. Im now 14 and very depressed. For now i have been assigned to a psychologist. Im overweight and spend most of my time on video games. But i dont wanna give video games up no matter what happens. It has been my life hobby and i will not just give it up. But still im scared. Scared that i wont make it. That my depression will take over and that or that i will never pass the exams. I just dont know what to do anymore. I dont have any suicide thoughts and probaly never will. But im miserable. So miserable.