No money is coming in, the friend I thought I had has become my frenemy, falling behind in school, moms depressed and is talking about leaving for nine months, dad has started writing me again but he could be trying to make records so he can bring it up in court, besides the frenemy no one in my class is really my “friend”, I feel alone, my homework is piling up, mom is mad at me, I stopped going to church, everyone takes no one gives back, not motivated, insults are weighing down on me, I am zoning out in class and I wish I would disappear, I can’t find myself anymore, there is no where to run or to escape, my mind is filled with unhappy thoughts, I feel forsaken, I’m reaching out but no one wants to help me, no one understands me, sometimes I wish i wouldn’t wake up, everyone is waiting for me to fail, I try to fight but I’m tired and I’m all alone, I have told many secrets to my frenemy when we were friends, so many mistakes and it feels like the Lord has turned his back on me too. So what now?