i dont know where my life is heading… this time next month i will get my results and be being starting college… if i get in. What if i dont though? how much of a dissapointment will i be to my family and to myself… I dont want to go to college because there is nothing i want to do there….. i dont know what course i will get or what the poeple there will be like… what if i make no friends. im almost 18 and have only ever been friends with girls… what if i can’t talk to guys? what if im alone forever, i dont like partying and going out clubbing and i dont drink, is anyone like me out there anymore???? im turning 18 in 2 weeks and i feel like id be happier turning 80…. i feel too old for todays youth…