For so long now ive been past this notion that love might exist, he crushed my heart and dragged it upon the ground, for years i layed silent waiting for things to get better until i just stopped believing. it was a dark night i sat outside smoking and i saw you you were like no other i had ever seen. as our relationship progress i fell harder than ever before . for once i opened up, you had fixed me again, i was new, the day you said it could never be i thought my world was crashing in. i bleed for hours that night wasting away time sighing . tears soaked my pillow and blood cover the paper towel i held to the cuts. i told myself i knew better . i told my self i could move on. i woke up with renewed strength and i found someone who would give me what i need and could never hurt me. i said to myself. if it could never stand a chance . why get attached to an idea that will only get you hurt . but then why with such clear logic . do i still doubt my actions . i wonder why cant the head and the heart work togather. hear i am wondering if it can be fixed now . if i could go back. if i could make you see i would pick you over anyone even my self . i think to myself why cant you see what i feel or read what i say to you here