hello today i want to tell the world my biggest secret in life, i am 19years old and am so a shame of my self i have this disorder called retrograde ejaculation, that’s when sperm goes back into your bladder instead of going out your uterus. my testicles are extremely small. and the worst thing is that am so f***ing afraid of telling anyone about this. i cant tell my parents because my mom is hypersensitive, and she probably will end up having a hart attack.no joke. my dad will definitely tell my mom. and i cant sit with my big bro and look at him and tell him my problem. i just f***ing cant. i smoke weed all the time now just to forget the pain that i feel inside of me. i sometimes hope i can see a doctor but how in the f***. i have no money no medicare, nothing. at list now i know probably someone will know how big of a pussy i am and the way that i feel.