I think i’m afraid of being rejected, even though in the back of my mind i know i deserve better. I love him. I don’t want our relationship to end. It sounds selfish but I want to be the one who ends it if/when the time comes, because i know at least then i will have some sort of control. If it goes wrong now, then I will just fall apart like shattered glass. I’m such a worrier… I need to stop worrying.