I feel that i shouldn’t be alive. i want to die so bad but nobody understands. it isn’t a cry for help or for attention it’s just what i feel and want. i think life is pointless i mean why do i have to be alive i don’t enjoy it. i’m ugly and fat. I don’t deserve to be loved or cared about. No one gets what i go through. my parents think i’m faking it but i don’t have a reason to it’s all true no lies. i want to just slit my neck or even my wrists. i want to die in the most painful way posssible aand if someone could watch it. heh even better. i regret plenty of decisions in my life. i just wish it would end. people think they know but they don’t know anything and if i told them it would be a big joke and they wouldn’t believe me.