I hate it how things are so different. I want it the way it used to be. You and me. I love the way you looked into my eyes. I miss that. Last night when i talked to you, it was like old times. When you said you had to go, I said goodbye, You surprised me when you said I love you. That made me smile, not just a smile but I felt happy. Then i texted you awwww and you said what and i said you said i love you I thought that was cute. You said oh. My heart kinda dropped at that moment. I don’t know how to take this as. I don’t know if he said it out of impulse or what. SOmetimes i really hate when things like this happen. So many things are different and I don’t like it. But anywho i hope that the next three times that i go to chicago i can fly alone and do it bymyself i dont know it kinda almost gives me a sense of freedom being by myself in the big city. I want to try it. But we will just have to see about it I guess. Now i guess i just have to worry about tomorrow and see how the day goes.