i hate myself right now. idk why but i know im a total mess and i cant do anything to make it better. i think everyone around me hate me too. i cant take control of my life and everything’s a mess. i disappoint everyone and myself. im not good with my God either and no wonder He’s giving me these s***s in my life right now. im homesick and feel like i have no friends to support when im going through this hard time. im only thankful for my dearest boyfriend but i don’t want to other him with this negative side of me anymore. i just hope that after this i’ll feel better and that i can get my life back on track again.