I’m venting here. This is okay. I need to let myself know that… Its all going to be okay. Alright: I’ve been hurting myself. Not that I want to kill myself, I love being alive, but, well I don’t really get why. I cut myself with my fingernails. I just push them into my skin until I start bleeding. I threw myself onto the ground and tried to break my arm. I have anxiety attacks all the time too. I’ll start hyperventilating and then I’ll start having an asthma attack and I wont get my inhaler, so I’ll sit there for an hour because I don’t have the will enough to make myself better. I’ve talked to my mom, I never tell her any of this specifically, just that I feel like I need help, and she says that I don’t need a therapist. “Therapists are for crazy people, you’re not crazy”. So I feel like I’m never going to get better. I feel broken.