sometimes i forget that this is my life you know? I feel dead, but breathing. So lifeless, because I have been doing nothing so far in my life. You just won’t understand if it hasn’t happened to you. But I want adventure. I want to be able to show my feelings without being embarrassed. I just feel like, like some sort of animal that looks like a human. I don’t feel alive, and I am watching all these people enjoy theirs and I feel so lost and hopeless. I feel like when I watch a movie or show, I become that character and almost live their life, never my own. I don’t even know what I want anymore, or who I am. Society is so f***ed up because my parents are upstairs watching television and they don’t even see the sadness in my eyes. When I say that I’m fine, I never am. I feel so lost in myself. Do I even have an identity. What even is life.