I am the kind of person that wants good grades but does not want to have to study because I lose all patience. I have nightmares about school. I sweat about it. My stomach literally gets sick about it. I get to the point where I actually throw up due to the stress sometimes. I am trying my best, but doing terrible. And I feel like I will never get a happy life or a job or a family because of all these mistakes I am making. I have no more hope for the future. I lost all of my dreams and ambitions and I do not know what I want to do at this point in my life. I feel such pressure to grow up. But I want to say young. I am used to failing that it doesn’t even affect me anymore. Is there hope for my future? Or will I just be a jobless loser living with my parents when I’m thirty?