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Confusion

I’m so confused, I don’t even know how to explain it. It’s like someone’s constantly watching me and like people are in my head. It’s like there is a show in my head and people will randomly come into it and speak to me and other people in my head. It’s like I have no control and everthing in my head has become so real… More than actual real life and it’s starting to scare me. I know I/this sounds so stupic but I have to tell someone now. I feel like because of this I can’t do normal things like get changed because even when i’m on my own it’s like i’m in puplic and have to hide myself, I find it hard to have showers now so I have to have baths everyday to hide myself with bubbles. I find that I talk to myself without even realising but in my head I’m talking to someone else but a real person that I know. Like right now I’m hiding my phone under the cover because I don’t want anyone to see this even though I know there’s no-one there. When I’m sat in public I feel like people around me can read my mind or something and know what i’m thinking even if I don’t know them. And when I’m in public I get so self consious! When someone around me laughs I think it’s about me and have to check theres nothing wrong with me or on me. Even if they talk quietly or whisper to each other I think it’s me. It’s got so bad that now even statuses or tweets even from people I don’t know or about things I haven’t even done I think are about me. It’s been like this for years now and it’s gradually getting worse and I can’t take it anymore. At first I thought it was just a short phase but now I know there is something wrong with me. I can’t handle it anymore. Someone please help me?!

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