I have really bad depression and I have to hide it every single day with a dumb smile. I am depressed about a lot of things. There is not one reason why I am so sad, everything just adds up. I am doing terrible in school, I have two friends that use me, guys don’t even look at me. And that’s just the beginning. People are horrible and rude. And there are a ton of fake rumors going around. I never do anything to anybody so I do not understand why I am getting so much hate. I am ignored by the people who used to enjoy being around me. My family is disappointed in me, and there is no one to talk to. I feel like every day is the same and I cannot seem to be happy for the things I do have, because they soon will be lost too. I will not go about killing myself. I find that to be selfish because this is such a beautiful life. But I am too far down the road and there is no way to turn back. I don’t know how to find happiness again.