I'm so sorry for what I did to you.. If I hadn't made such a stupid mistake and cheated on you in high school, you would still trust me unconditionally, no matter who I was hanging out with. You're still with me after all these years after giving me a second chance, but you struggle to trust me with seeing anyone I get remotely close to of the opposite sex.
After outgrowing the hormones of my teenage years, I regret having done that more than anything, constantly asking myself why I did it and I can never seem to justify it. I used to say "hormones" and a "bad time in my life." Now, all I see is a visible, obvious, deep, mental scar I've left on you and I just keep thinking, "I did that. I Did That. I DID THAT!" over and over again to the point I'm actually shouting at myself where no one can hear me. Oh God, why did I do that?.. I'm so sorry..