I hate that there's a chance I might never get to see you or laugh with you again. I hate that I'll never be able to think of you in the same light now that I know how many people you've f***ed over. I hate that I'm one of them. And if I were honest in the end, I wish we could at least be best friends because I've never related to anyone more than I've related to you. But you're also selectively narcissistic and I don't understand why you were mean to K but you were never mean to me. I'm angry that you were mean to her. I hate that I can't be me without being reminded of you. How do I become Me again? How?