I have my best friend. She is amazing. A little too much so. Every time I have interest in a guy, every time they meet her, it’s like I am invisible. It sucks.
How could I ask someone to give up on what they think is better and want them to be with something they don’t want the most? She is prettier than I am, cooler than I am, nicer than I am, more talented in art, singing, danging. I don’t blame them for wanting her. But it’s hard. It feels like there is no one out there that would ever choose me. Like I said, I don’t blame them. You should go for what you think you deserve and want, so why not go for the best?
But it’s always just so aggravating and maddening. and since I know these people I have to try and help them through their heart break every time she turns one down. I don’t want them to pick me as a second choice. I want to be the one they see and want to be with. I have so many flaws, but I just want someone to love me through all my bull s***, accept me for who I am, and love me like I have seen men love my best friend.
I am at the point of giving up and just dedicating my self to work and one day a house full of animals. I can’t just keep competing against the unbeatable.