I have the worst headache of my life. It is not the most painful one ever, but it is the longest. I have had it for a week and I’m beginning to be very depressed. My thoughts are becoming so negative. I have handled my mother’s alzheimers OK, but today, I cannot stop crying about it. I want to drive to my mom and dad’s house right now and take my mother’s hands in mine, look her in the eyes, and tell her she HAS to come back to me NOW. I can’t do that though. It would upset my father too much. He has enough to deal with without me falling apart. But, I miss my mom so much. The disease has stolen her from me. I don’t know this woman who lives with my dad. She is a stranger. Funny thing is she and I never got along well, but I would give anything to deal with our constant disagreements again. I am 58 years old. I am too old to need my mama. Too old to need my mama? I don’t think that you ever get too old. Even though we argued a lot, no one ever loved me like she did. So lonely without her. Feeling alone in the world.