sometimes i wonder if there is a god. i believe right until someone tells me something. i hurt all the time it is nothing new to me but when someone like my girls hurt i only want to lash out and there is nothing to stop me. i tell the people i care about that i am sorry, that they are to tell everyone that i am sorry but things have to be done and i only have one purpose. i am sorry but i dont know what to do…i have given two days grace for things to be dealt with before i am done and have to do it. someone please talk to me…this is only the iceburg that i have to deal with.