I feel so weak and vulnerable. I wish i still had you in my life that kept me together. I went to the park today, and i saw an old couple, happily walking together hand in hand. How i wish that could’ve been me. I still ask myself everyday in the morning and night, what if you were still here? I tell myself that i won’t cry ill be strong yet being strong seems to be the hardest thing for me, i cry every night thinking about all the times you made me laugh till my stomach hurt, all the times i laid my head on your chest, and listened to you heart beat. Or just the little things, like brushing my teeth next to you. I never thought it would be this hard to not have that one person. It almost feels like i can’t breathe and i have this hollow feeling. I try not to think about you… i tried to move on, but i can’t. How can i try to move one when you were the only one who got me? Who made me happy. I’d give anything up to have you next to me.