Sorry i saw this website and just felt like writing at here to pour things out while listening to a song called :”carry on” by ali (korean singer) .
I have went through a year and a half that i did not expect to go through, how many times i feel like giving up but because i don’t want other people to think i am weak but in fact i am. I cried a lot of times, esp after my grandfather died last year, each time i remember i saw him lying in front of me on his bed, how i remember i wanna hold his hand so much but i did not. Because i was scared, stupid me. My regret for not visiting him two days before when i was suppose to. All my happiness just flew away because after that things just don’t stop happening, my classmates, my friend tat i tot who was my friend, i know everything happens for a reason, so when i start choosing sides, i start to lose then what i can have, then in the end the side tat i chose ditch me, or is trying hard to ditch me because it got tired of using me. How many times i have to tell myself to be strong, but i just keep letting myself fall down. I have always been true to my friends, is being honest a bad thing, when i cant feel the love from my family despite my dad…. is friends family? Or are we just there for other people to use in their life? I am naive, i am, but wad i want is just to have everyone to be happy in this family, in this class, why is there any wrong? If its wrong, please show me a way to correct it, god….