so you’ll think that what i’m writing right now is weird,but i really have to write it down. so i live in a place where family means everything n where family is really close together and that stuff. in my case its different half my family is in germany (cousins n uncles)and my friends always talk about how they have fun with their cousins and how nice it is to have them..again in my case, me and my half german cousins r like strangers we know eachother by name or picture. and its feels really weird and uncomfortable when you see them in pictures n theyre all grown up. i suddenly feel like i lost a piece of my confidence. im sad that i hear about them from someone else and that we have no contact at all. you cant imagine how much i care about them,how much i think about them. i need them as a part in my family, theyre like a missing puzzle piece.and i have absolutely no idea what im goin to say if i meet them someday, i know it will be definitly akward. if its one thing i know, family always supports you and is there for you. and i wish someday i will manage to be friends with them…