i think i have depression.i’m not sure but all i know is i dont smile anymore and if someone asks me how i am feeling i just say ok but inside its just nothingness i think…it’s hard to describe. i do stupid things and get my heart broken. i feel sad sometimes like on farthers days as my dad left and i never met him and he divorcedd my mum 3 years ago i was in a bad place but i overcame it,but then i went to high school. every year so far i have been bullied 3years by the same people.and once by a teacher this was the most recent,i ran out of his class it got so bad and this has really shaken me up. i pretend to be strong but inside i tell myself never cry infrount of them,after we fight i run to the toilets and let it all out. i dont want to go to school again but it’s my last year so i guess i have no choice. the only place i ever feel safe is in fantasy..so i read a lot and lose myself in there and i write too,i think for me without knowing it it is a form of therapy. i had a theropist and a counciler but the bullying stopped for a while and i gained some confidence but i still cant accept compliments without thinking they are liying or jokeing. i’m fat and ugly and i pretty much hate how i look. sometimes i just dont want to be here anymore. as it’s the holidays i was trying to organise with my 2 best friends of they wanted to do something on facebook,but on the same place one invited the other round her house but not me,it’s happening quite a lot now and i feel lonely and stupid,why would anyone hang around wiith you the voice in my head keeps saying these things and i think they are true. i feel worthless and stupid.