I just cannot fight your battles, i have too many battles of my own, my emotional struggles my battles with my heart and mind, my own issues. someone comes and tells me their issues, major issues and i just lose it and just cry for them and pray for them, want justice for them. I just go into such a dark place in my mind and heart, i just cannot seem to come out of there. I need to assure myself that i do not have to think about those things. It affects my life like crazy, i just cannot eat, sleep, then i get sick, with muscle aches, heartburn, hair fall. it wreaks havoc within me. after i’m totally drained out, my own issues start to cloud me.
Ppl know how sensitive i am, i can feel other ppl’s pain. But why do you tell me such things. It kills me. I do not want to live with those thoughts. I cannot erase that from my mind. I want to pray for other people, but this last week was horrible. I want to be a good person, so i cannot just forget about it.
I’m torn, I think I’m depressed. I desperately need to be in therapy but i cannot afford it.
Any kind words help would be great.