May 26, 2012 at 9:40…
I tried to kill myself.
I pushed a pillow against my face, but it didnt work.
I grabbed my nose and held my breath, but somehow id start breathing again.
I started reading about how many pills of a medication I found, does it take to die…
Why?
Because I believe in something about what happens after life.
Iv had a terrivle life no 13 year old should have…
And it started when I was 4.
At least thats all I can remember, I have “Blocked Out” most my life from my memories, and I only remembr the things that lft “bruises”, not the “Scars”.
Like when my Neighbor tryed to burn me to death while I was asleep, Attempted Kidnap, Sexual Assualt, 5 important people taken away from me… Yeah, thoughs are the “BRUISES”! My mom wont tell me about the “Scars”.
And all I want is to be happy, so I found what I believed after death, and I believe its my only chance at happiness…
AllyNa