My parents always fight and it makes me feel weird and alone so I sometimes lie to friends say everything is alright so there won’t be drama I have anorexia and I wasn’t supposed to tell anyone not even my father knew I was feeling alone a friend came over I told her then this year she is a notch to me I don’t no y I trusted her and told everything to her and now it’s like I am a cat and she was using me to eat the mice and I told my other supposed to be friend and she says u don’t look it and I said that’s cuz I had 2 surgeries to get fat in my body and same thing now she hates me I got with this one guy C and he cheated on me with a few other girls and it didn’t hit me at all until she got with him 2 days after and then I was kinda mad at her I only told my new bff’s and then months after I almost got with my best guy friend who I kinda liked I knew it might be weird to get with him becuz of all the stuff I shared with so in was having doubts then I told my friend that I don’t think I should cuz I love him like a bro and she told him and he said he heard and I was like yeah and he said he was cool with that he was thinking same thing accept me as a sis and then later i got with a guy that I was good friends with and didn’t even like I just didn’t wanna hurt his feelings so then while I was with him all my friends started to ignore me and in was sad like said I have anorexia so it got worse had to eat way more since I didn’t have much blood flow and then we had this dance and I am like in love with this guy who is a grade above me so totally out of my league and he asked me 2 dance with him so I did it was amazing and my bf found out he was jealous and was mad wanted to brake up with him but my old friend told me he was brAking up with me so I was happy told everyone that in was and then he asked me out again I said has to be secret and then about a week later I broke up with him all my friends became friends again but I can’t trust them and they won’t tell me anything so I don’t wanna eat anything! What should I do just kill myself or whT?