I feel pathetic. beautiful day, barely got curtain opened for some sun. The dog needs to go run and play so badly. I want to, i really do, i just can't muster up the energy. My life can't just go with the flow, no, there are always hiccups even in the simplest of tasks. Why? i just dont get it. I get tired of dealing with it all and just want to shut down. totally. just sit in one catatonic state until it all smooths over. Wish i had a man in my life to atleast get through it with. Probably to set in my ways now anyways….fml