I don't know whether I would live or not.. I am constantly fighting with me all day i try a lot but i just cant forget that
i am a failure and there's no such field left where i have not failed i have failed as a student as a friend as a daughter as a sister its endless
it becomes even more painful for me as i was never a failure before i was literally good at everything and suddenly idk what just happened to me and i lost everything
I have lost my self esteem my inner power and peace. My mind is not at all calm. I am constantly feeling sad lonely and defeated.
since childhood i have always dreamt of having a perfect life and it really gets me on my nerves that i am not able to clear a stupid exam which is the doorway for my dream life.
I don't trust myself now i used to be confident but now i am just a confused soul who doesn't know what to do
Everyday i see my nearones having high expectations from me and me being clueless of what to do to fulfill it
My life is a complete mess right now and the fact that i know ,its not that what i wanted it to be makes my heart break
I used to believe in gods but now i hate them i abuse them everyday whatever situation i am in right now they are the only reason for it they used to indicate me whenever i was going wrong but in my tough time they left me first.it hurts me every day
I work really hard but i never get rewarded never in my life i have ever felt proud for me
I have always tried to be perfect in everything but i always end up failing
Its said that life gives losers a chance and i don't know when will my chance come