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Posted by on 2021/04/28 under Life

I don't know whether I would live or not.. I am constantly fighting with me all day i try a lot but i just cant forget that
i am a failure and there's no such field left where i have not failed i have failed as a student as a friend as a daughter as a sister its endless
it becomes even more painful for me as i was never a failure before i was literally good at everything and suddenly idk what just happened to me and i lost everything
I have lost my self esteem my inner power and peace. My mind is not at all calm. I am constantly feeling sad lonely and defeated.
since childhood i have always dreamt of having a perfect life and it really gets me on my nerves that i am not able to clear a stupid exam which is the doorway for my dream life.
I don't trust myself now i used to be confident but now i am just a confused soul who doesn't know what to do

Everyday i see my nearones having high expectations from me and me being clueless of what to do to fulfill it
My life is a complete mess right now and the fact that i know ,its not that what i wanted it to be makes my heart break
I used to believe in gods but now i hate them i abuse them everyday whatever situation i am in right now they are the only reason for it they used to indicate me whenever i was going wrong but in my tough time they left me first.it hurts me every day
I work really hard but i never get rewarded never in my life i have ever felt proud for me
I have always tried to be perfect in everything but i always end up failing
Its said that life gives losers a chance and i don't know when will my chance come

2 thoughts on “I need help!

  1. Anonymous says:

    All you can do is try. You have not failed at anything but your expectations have gotten the best of you. “ There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so.”
    -William Shakespeare
    If you try to think about life like this it gets easier. Think about what you have done, what relationships you do have, what accomplishments you’ve done. When you change this mindset and stop focusing on all the negative things it gets a little bit better. Try keeping your thoughts from becoming down or negative. It can be hard to do at times. Expectations are hard! You can’t please everyone, try focusing on what you want. From one great writer, “ My Dear,
    Find what you love and let it kill you. Let it drain you of your all. Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into eventual nothingness. Let it kill you and let it devour your remains. For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it’s much better to be killed by a lover.”
    -Falsely yours
    Charles Bukowski

  2. Anonymous says:

    Thank a lot dear

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