I can’t tell anyone. I can’t be myself. This smile is not me. I’m bitter, I’m angry and I’m f***ing hurting, every minute of every day. How will I ever get through college? What did I think I was doing when I enrolled? I’m nothing but a sex object and a punching bag, for guys to just abuse whenever they want. I can never be anything. I should finish this now. I WANT to finish this now.