My best friend died on the 8th, she was everything to me. I've been suicidal a long time and I'm constantly being given reasons to end it all, now my best friend is gone too. I don't see any reason in continuing, she was gonna help me get on my feet and now I'll never see her. I'm told I should live with her, and I agree, I just really don't want to. I've never wanted life, I've always looked for a way out. I guess I'm just not cut out for life.